A flashback of chinese interest...

A try at quality posting...
Chinese music...a more or less unappreciated art by most english-speaking families today. Strangely, me, or I, whatever, who was brought up speaking english every day of my life, studied in a pure english school which has major discrimination towards everything chinese related and almost everyone in the school sucking in chinese BAD, called st. michael's school a.k.a St. Joseph's Institution Junior. Together with my schoolmates i loathed chinese to the core and pissed my mother off whenever i made a discriminating remark on those CHEENA ppl(myself, yea but i realli hated chinese then). Couldnt help it... i was under heavy influences from environment...enculturation whatever.

Turning point came in pri 4 when i entered rosyth. There the chinese standard WAS SO FREAKING HIGH i failed initially... barely passed... and remained there... sucky results pissed me off more and i !@#$ing hated chinese. Chinese was the onli shit subject i didnt get astar in for PSLE and ruined my chances for RI GAH! Went to ACSI in which EVERYONE hATES CHINESE TOO!(except maybe chinese scholars but they dont count) but STANGELY... i took higher chinese... weird rite... i noe i dunno y too... There my Chinese teacher also known as XSH who some of my classmates blogged horribly abt and got punised to make public apology to the school...sorry digressing... Anyway the XSH completely didnt help matters but on my own i took an interest in chinese comics... read them... loved them... and bought stacks of em... not the crappy japanese manga but really nice CHINESE comics based on novelty novels by louis cha or 三国演义。yea started watching chinese shows like that and those wu xia xiao pian. Even those meaningless taiwan variety shows lol.

Then came the Chinese MUSIC yeA! CHEERS! Somehow i dunno y? and when? i suddenly stopped liking english music...the last english album i bought was blue:guilty which was like how many years ago... i started liking CHINESE MUSIC! Seriously i dunno y... even though i started liking chinese and am in higher chinese, my chinese really still sucks and my last mid year exam i onli barely passed... but i still like chinese music cos i feel it like connects u noe... maybe its the lyrics or the music(seriously doubt the music) but just being able to hear chinese in ur head instead of random shouting by LINKIN PARK(sorry no offense...everyone entitled to own tastes..no?) or just other kinds of angmoh music which just completely dont connect except for the music...in fact the onli english music i kinda appreciate are church hymns...yea go Catholics...and Christians/Protestants... We being chinese ppl living in a country completely westernised... its a sad fate but we can try to do what we can by connecting with our chinese sides... of cos there are many youths out there who speak chinese at home and have no problems with this.... but for the people around me i DO noe they are completely english and hate chinese... sucks for them..they dunno what theyre missing LOL! jk...jk... i sincerely hope that all chinese ppl in singapore who lived their entire lives in english try to become more of a CHINESE PERSON PLS... try appreciating ur own MT and race... no matter how much u americanize...oops shudnt relate onli to america...again... no matter how much u angmohnize urself ur still chinese inside...feel and reach out to ur inner self...to ur chinese pride lying dormant for as long as ur angmohnizede lives have been and live as someone who ACTUALLY is CHINESE. Of cos theres no harm in immersing urself in angmoh... all im trying to say is not to ONLI immerse urself in angmoh but also reach out to ur chinese side... actually u R pure chinese so there isnt a chinese side cos u R chinese... but nvm anyway dont be a banana(yellow skin on the outside,white inside) but be human...LOL random... cant think of a nice ending to this crappy post nobody full of contradictions and repeats nobody will read anyway...